Smiling Like You Never Did Before

How I Relieve Stress With Music.

2010-04-25T15:58:00.004+08:00

It Have Been A Very Stressing Weekend For Me As I Need To Complete Coloring. I As Usual Tried To Relieve Stress With Music And Dance To The Rhythm But Recently I Have A Backache Because I Just Fell Down Flat From My Table. Worst..It Was During My Recording.

I Know, I Know..This Is The Retribution For Making Fun Of Justin Bieber. :P

Anyway ABBA FTW!

Why It Had Been A Long Time Since I Last Vlog ?

2010-04-23T23:16:00.003+08:00

Please Mind My Tone Because I'm Just Practicing My Effective Speaking. I Understand That There Are Some Grammatical Mistakes Here And There. This Is Because I Am Trying To Season My Tongue Into Using Correct English After Years Of Singlish. No More Editing And Cropping My Clips.
Next, I Would Like To Apologize To Anyone Being Irritated By My Words. I Understand That This Is The Fact And HAHAH...No I Meant That This May Not Be A Fact And I Hope I Do Not Get Banned Or Flagged In This Video.
Lastly, Since It Had Been A Long Time Since I Last Vlog-ed....I Believe That This Time RoundThe Readers/Viewers Deserve A Longer Video Eventhough It Might Irritate A Few.

Mac Mac Mac Mac Song

2010-03-11T20:39:00.002+08:00

Hello Readers,

Today I Went To The IT Show At Suntec City And Was Interested In Macbook Pro. I Know I Sound Like A Small Kid Who Want Something Badly But Seriously Speaking This Macbook Pro Is Really Worth It To Invest On. It Is Expensive But Worth It. Am I RepeatingThat. Ok. I Am.

Coming Back To The Topic, My Father Is Willing To Invest On It (Not Due To The Song I Sang When He Is Bathing) But Because Of Its Software Inside. In Addition To That, When I Work In The Future, Companies In The Design Sector Would Be Using Mac Software. If I Am Comfortable With That. Working With The Companies Would Not Be A Problem :D.

Cheers~!

Boyfriend Or Girlfriend Or Jamming Session?

2010-03-05T19:38:00.002+08:00

Totally Avant-Garde.

2010-02-26T20:34:00.004+08:00

Dear Readers,

As You Can See This Picture Which Shows *Art Metal (My Inspiration), I Am Bringing Up A Topic About Me Forming A Band In This Post. To Begin With, The Band Had Been Re-formed After It Was Split Few Months Ago. Thanks To A Friend Of Mine, Who Brought Our Spirit Back Recently.

Basically, I Would Be The Vocalist (Death/Scream/Black Vocals) And Play The Rhythm Guitar In That Band. Our First Song Would Be A Cover From A Popular Song That We Learnt In Nursery School, Old Macdonald Had A Farm. It Would Be Interesting As We Plan To Bring Two Contridicting Genre Of Music Together, Which Is Rhymes And Metal/Core Style And See What Happens.

We Would Start Up With Easy Songs First As It Takes Time To Glue Everything Together. In The Long Run, I Plan To Make It To Be Avant-garde Based Band When We Know How To Co-ordinate Things Well And Explore Other Genres As Well.

Hopefully, Everything Goes As It Should. I Cant Wait For The First Recording :D.

*Art Metal, Or Also Known As Experimental/Avant-Garde Metal, Comes Down From Extreme Metal And Avant-Garde Music. They Do Not Follow The Laws Of The Genre. Their Structure Of The Song Is Rather Odd. Strong Sence Of Originality And Self-Expression. Basically Abstract.

Pornographically Correct

2010-02-21T21:33:00.002+08:00

Haircut Reunion

2010-02-13T23:11:00.003+08:00

It Had Been A Long Time Eversince I Blogged. This Is Because Of My Tight Schedule. Everyday To Me Is Like An Ordinary Busy Monday. Polytechnic Had Already Started For Me. Eventhough It Was Just Activities I Tried To Make Myself Busy So As To Make Myself Distracted Like Playing Pointless Games At Miniclip.

Since My Polytechnic Course Have No Disciplinary Action Against Outstanding Hairstyle, I Decided To Have One. Few Days Before Polytechnic Starts, My Father, Who Is A Barber, Gave Me A Haircut. The Bad Thing About My Father Is That He Is Too Strict To The Rule About Hairstyle. No Wonder He Is So Patriotic And Vote For PAP (People's Action Party).

Getting Back To The Point, My Father As Usual Gave Me A Uniform Standard Haircut. I Then Asked Him To Cut My Hair Both Sides Of My Head Shorter In A Unique Way. The Bad Thing With Him, The Word Unique/Different Is Not In His Dictionary. So Ended Up A Mixture Of Standard And Unique Hairstyle Which Looks Shitty. Really Bad Combination. But I Appreciate His Efforts. What Can I Say I Am Spoilt :D.

I Just Nodded My Head And Said It Was Ok So As To Prevent It From Looking Shittier.

When I Reached Home, I Searched In His Closet For A Shaving Machine. Luckily My Father Always Left A Spare At Home. So, I Gave It A Good Use. I Used It And Re-Edited My Hair To How I'd Always Wanted It To Be. I Love My Hairstyle But It Is Not Appreciated. Due To That I Got A Couple Of Nagging From My Father.

Seriously, I Do Not Find Anything Weird With Myself. The Only Thing I Find Myself Weird Is My Left Arm Pit Is The Only One Growing Hair.

Sigh....

Today, I Had A Reunion Dinner At My Aunt's House. Since She Married To A Chinese, Everything Was Cooked Chinese Style. It Was Nice And So Family Like. While Eating, I Felt So Happy As It Had Been A Long Time I Had Something Like This. I Got So Engrossed That I Felt As If I Had A Great Family But It Was Always Spoiled By This Bastard In My Head Questioning Whether I Have One. That Bastard Is Conscience. Always There To Spoil My FUCKING Day.

Conscience If You Are Reading This, FUCK YOU.

Sorry, Sometimes I Got To Let Out My Anger. I Should Stop This As People Might Think I Am Crazy. No..I Should Not Type This, People Might Think I Am Just Acting Crazy. Ok, Shhhhh.

Goodnight <3

Interview: How I Want My Family To Be.

2010-01-17T20:18:00.000+08:00

Like I Promised Myself.

An Interview.

Sorry For The Ending Because It Just Came Into My Mind And I Do Not Know A Word That I Am Saying And Why I Did So.

It Came From The Advertisement Best Denki I Saw When I Was Young.

Chords:
G Em C D

GCE O Level Results

2010-01-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

I Never Thought That The Suspense Before Getting The GCE O Level Results Was So Intense. After Getting Back My Result I Cooled Down And Was Delighted To See My Results. My L1R4 Was 21 Which Is Enough For Me To Enter My Course Through Direct Poly Admission.

I Went Around To Thank Some Of The Teachers Left In The School Even They Are Not Related To Me. Just To Make Myself Happy. Lastly Was The Principal. Eventhough The Principal Had Marked Me Eversince She Knew Me, She Was Happy For Me. Probably Because I Would Not Appear In Her Life Again.

I Understand Most Of The Students Would Find This Result "Un-Honorable" To Be Posted. As For Me, I Feel Proud That Even My Results Were Badly Done, I Managed To Go Through All The Difficulties I Faced In 2009. I Call That An Honour.

Just As I Got A Party Mood Pumped Up To Celebrate Back Home With Everyone, I Felt Something Was Missing. When I Sat Down And Tried To Think About It, I Realised That I Had A Family. Hence There Is No "Everyone".

Sometimes, I Really Hate Myself For Forgetting Things That I Hate And Ends Up Hating It Even More.

After That Realisation, I Began To Regret That I Hated Families Just Because I Was Comparing With Mine. Honestly, I Was Jealous. Now I Understand What Are Families For By The Bitter Way.

Alright, Enough Of This. I Need To Have A Good Rest For My Last "Family Day" Tomorrow. Hopefully It's The Last.

Note* Remind Me To Post About How I Want My Family To Be In My Next Post. Just For Fun.

Computer Games

2010-01-06T00:59:00.000+08:00

Counter Strike? I Used To Hate It But I Now Find It Interesting. Thanks To My Chinese Neighbour, He Got Me 'Addicted' To That Game. Come To Think Of It, There Were No Lesson Learnt After Playing That Game Besides Killing And Brainwashing.

I Find It Brainwashing Because This Game Is Making The Russians/Middle Eastern/Swedish As Terrorist. If Those Who Played The Game Without Background Knowledge, Would Assume That They Are Violent People. It Is Quite Obvious What Country Created This Game..

Happy New Year?

2009-12-29T22:44:00.000+08:00

Midnight Marks The New Year 2010. Come To Think Of It, Time Flies. It Felt Like Yesterday Was My First Day Of Secondary School. I Really Missed Schooling In Regent Secondary. I Also Regretted Not Breaking Most Of The School Rules. What A Waste...

I Really Do Not Understand Why People Celebrate New Year. For Me, It's Not Beneficial Nor Needed. It Is Not Like Chinese New Year, Hari Raya,Chrismas Or Deepavali Where People Celebrate For Their Religious/Cultural Tradition To Gain Something From It. In Addition,What Does New Year Celebration Gives You Besides Being Drunk And Extreme Cases Unwanted Babies.

I Understand That It Might Be Cool For The Society To Scream "Happy New Year!" And Hangout With Friends And Families During The New Year As We Are Following The 'Superior' Westerners. So Why Don't We Have Something Like This At The Eve Of The New Year Of The Chinese, Islamic And Indian Calender. It Would Be More Multi-Racial Aye? I Thought Singapore Aims A Multi-Racial Country.

For Me, I Just Enjoy The Eve By Shouting Randomly In My Room. I Don't Know Whether It Is Lame Or Mentally Deprived From The Society's Point Of View. I Just Know That I Am Enjoying My Life And Showing My Point Of View Of The Society Back By Blogging.

I Am Just A Sick Anti-Social With Problematic Behaviour.

I Wonder Who Would Take Me As A Son In Law. Seriously. I Think I Would Be A Black Sheep To Their Family. Wait...., I Am Already One To Mine. I Would Not Want To Make One To Others.

Looking On The Bright Side, I Still Enjoy Being Myself.

Rainy Days

2009-12-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

It Had Been Raining Lately In Singapore. It Was The Typical Monsoon Season At The End Of The Year. Everything Went Cold As Expected. It Made Me Become Gloomy Just By Observing This Cold Season Past.

Things In My Life Grew A Little Weirder Eversince. I Could Not Explain Why I Am Afraid Of My Own Imagination Sometimes. Examples Would Be, I Deter Myself From Eating So As To Prevent My Stomach From Exploding. I Would Also Run Around The House Thinking That I Was Chased By My Own Shadow (Which I Still Do Not Know What Is Scary About It) . It Is Just Unexplainable.

Apart From Fear, I Also Frequently Day-Dreamed Of People Whom I Admired Who Smiled And Drooled When Doing So. It Was Funny Yet From My Point Of View They Were More Beautiful That Way. This Is Because That Is My Definition Of Beauty.

Moving On, I Tried Distracting Myself To Stop My Imagination From Outwitting Me. I Used The Means Of Fun That I Never Tried Before To Distract Myself. So, I Bathed With My Clothes On Inside-Out And Wearing Sunglasses In The Name Of Fun. My Maid Had Been Screaming Outside The Toilet Telling Me That She Would Not Wash That Clothes I Was Wearing But I Ignored. I Even Took Pictures To Show Her How Much Fun I Had Inside.

I Just Miss Being Childish.

To A Certain Extent, I Am Rude To Her. Aunty, If You Are Reading This...I Am Really Sorry For The Things I Had Done. Kalau Engak Paham Bahasa Ingris, Saya Hendak Mintak Maaf Atas Kesalahan Terhina Yang Saya Telah Membuati. Those Above Words Are Translated In Malay/Indoneasian So As She Understands.

Why Am I So Bad?....

I Don't Know Ask God.

I Had Been Questioning Myself That Question. All These Time I Couldn't Get An Answer. That Is Why I Am Scared To Have/Make Friends. Despite Me Trying To Socialise And Adapting With My Friends Behaviour, I Normally Get Two Results. It Is Either I Got Taken Advantage Or Made Them Hurt With What I Do. That Is Why I Would Rather Be Left Alone. But Being Alone Sucks. Nevermind, Be Alone Sometimes. That Is Better.

Ok!

Enough For Today.

I Think That I Am Telling To Myself That I Need To Sleep.

Goodnight!

Will Color This Post Tomorrow.

Done

How I Got These Smiles On My Face.

2009-12-24T01:02:00.000+08:00

In The Middle Of The Video I Was Told To Go And Sleep And Wipe Off My Smile. My Father As Usual Said Not To Waste Electricity By Using The Light In The Kitchen Where He Himself Had Switched On Both The Air-conditioner And Fan. The Worst Part Is That He Had Forgotten To Switch Off The Toilet Light. Father....Sometimes I Want To Talk Back But I Am Scared That My Son/Daughter Reading This Will Use This Against Me. See, Daddy Was A 'Good' Boy Last Time.

These Past Few Days, I've Been Occupying My Time With World Of Warcraft. I Once Cursed It For Making My Friends Wasting Their Time Playing That Game. Come To Think Of It, It Was A Nice Game After All. I Was Inspired By The Undead's Sayings When You Move Them Around. I Like Their Way Of Talking That I Used It In My Daily Life. Just For Fun.

An Event Would Be, My Maid Asked Me. 'Hakim, What Do You Want To Eat?' And I Replied Using A Ghoul's Language Reply. 'Gwalghhh!'

This Went To An Extent That Made My Father Thought I Was Infected With Computer Virus. Hahaha. Throughout His Years Of Experience And Education, He Thought That Computer Viruses Are Organic Virus That Infects People's Mind Through...I Don't Know. Seriously. This Is What Happens When Parents Are Filled With Fear After Reading News Paper Article About 'Parental' Safe Internet Security From Anti-virus Companies And Concluding Without Background Knowledge Of It.

Father If You Are Reading This. I Am Not Looking Down On You, I Am Just Admiring Your Imagination And Creativity.

Imagination

2009-12-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

Imagination by ~Neography on deviant ART

Imagination.

A Word Of A Thousand But Not Meant To Be Understood. When We Try To Understand It, We Would Be Running In Circles. The Reason Is Because We Could Not Understand The Definition Of Imagination Itself. I Know We Know What The Word Means But Trust Me We Would Be Dumbfounded.

Definition
imagine verb
/ɪˈmædʒ.ɪn/ v [T]
• to form or have a mental picture or idea of something.

http://dictionary.cambridge.org/define.asp?key=39097&dict=CALD

When You Are Reading The Meaning/Definition, Are You Forming Or Picturing What It Means? If Yes, Your Mind Would Be Thinking In Circles In A Way That You Can't Find The Answer. Hence It Is Like A Mirror, Reflecting Nothing But The Mirror Itself. Strange....

Amnesia

2009-12-15T01:41:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggers,

I Feel Really Lost These Past Few Days. Time Past Really Fast And I Was Not Aware Of The Surrounding Changes. Sometimes I Was Awaken By The Bus Driver Telling Me That The Bus Had Stopped It's Service. I Then Dragged Myself Out Of The Bus Unaware To Go.

It Is Really Strange. The More I Think Of It, The Scarier It Got.

Everytime When I Look At The Mirror, I Question Myself Who Is That In That Mirror. It Is Obvious That It Is Me But Who Is That Inside Me?

This Morning, I Had The Worst Bath Ever. I Had Totally Forgotten Which Is A Shampoo And A Soap. I Ended Up Wearing Soap On My Hair And Shampoo On My Body. I Tried To Re-Condition My Hair As It Is Haywired. Until Now My Hair Is Still Very Dry And Wavy. I Think I Mistakenly Used Bleach.

On My Way Home From Work, I Kept Thinking Of....Shit! I Had Forgotten What I Was Thinking About. Why Must This Thing Keep Happening....

It Is REALLY Fustrating When One Minute You Totally Know What You Want To Say Then The Next Minute You Totally Forgotten What You Wanted To Say.

Before I Forget What I Wanted To Say AGAIN, I Just Finished Re-editing My Blog Template As I Find There Is A Need For Improvement. Furthermore, The Previous Template Looks Scary. I Don't Know Why But I Know There Is A Reason Why It Was Scary To Me.

Apart From All These, I Dreamt About Myself Floating Into The Sky In A Giant Bubble. There, I Met My School Friends. Suddenly, The Bubble Poped And Everyone Fell A 600m Free Fall. The Pressure Was Soo Intense That My Heartbeat Began To Beat Quickly. Slowly I Began To See My School Mate Die One By One As They Landed Earlier On A Higher Platform. As I Watched Them Die, I Could Not Stop Laughing Because It Is Really A Surreal Way To Die. I Was Like The Person To Hit The Floor And It Fits The Saying, "Those Who Laugh Last, Laugh The Best."

I Was Then Awaken From My Gaze By A Toddler's Screech In The Mcdonald. To My Horror, That Toddler Was Holding A Ballon. Leaving My Half Finished Shaker Fries, I Kept A Distance Away From That Toddler And Rushed Home. If You Are Wondering Why I Do So, It Is Because I Remembered "The Final Destination" Movie . It Might Be Lame/Childish But I Just Took Precautions.

Ok, I Would Like To Go To Sleep Now As I Had Finished Blogging. Oh Yeah!, The Thing I Was Thinking On My Way Home Just Now Was Thinking Of My Blog. I Think. I Think I Dont Think So. Nevermind.

Sincerely,

Hakim Nur Zulkiflee

Interview: What Do You When You Are Bored?

2009-12-11T09:07:00.000+08:00

These Past Few Days I Had Been Busy With Work.

That Means Lesser Post And Vlogging :(

Introduction

2009-12-07T13:02:00.000+08:00

After Vlogging For The Third Time, I Realised I Made Alot Of Mistake That I Had Done Previously.

The First One Was Not Having A Proper Introduction Of Me And Not Being Random As Most Of The Readest Are Not Like Me.

Hopefully, I Get More Comments So That I Could Bring My Vlogging Skills To The Next Level :D.

2009-12-06T01:03:00.000+08:00

Firstly I Had Forgotten To Use The Mic At The First Minute.

Lastly, Hello.

Finally, Bye.

2009-12-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

Heaven'o Bloggers,

I Decided Not To Vlog Because, I Had Been Waking Up Late For My Morning Prayers. Additionally, I Was Late For A Morning Meeting With My Friends. I Realise Vlogging Is Time Consuming Despite It Being More Interesting Than Writing.

I Was Told That My First Vlog Post Was Almost Inaudible. So now, I Got A Friend Called Mic. Hopefully He Could Amplify What I Am Saying On My Next Vlog.

I Woke Up Today With Toothpaste Smell On My Bedsheets. Honestly, There Was A Slight Stinging Sensation On My Part Of The Body Which Is Used For Urinating. It Must Be The Left Over Toothpaste Drool.

This Reminded Me Of 01/04/2009 ;

That Day, I Brought Chili "Padi", One Of The Hottest Chili Known To Man, To School. I Decided Put The Seeds On My Friend's Water bottle. After Peeling Out Those Seeds, I Went To The Toilet To Pee. Forgetting That I Had Peeled Those Chillies, I Hold My Man Stick My Two Thumbs On The Shaft For A Better Aim. On My Way Back To Class, I Felt Something Awkward Happening. I Ignored.

When I Resumed My Work In Class, The Strange Feeling Began To Enhance Every Second. I Went To The Corner Of The Class To Check Out If My Jewels Were Alright. Turned Out That The Right Sack Was Wrinkled! By Then, I Realised That It Was Due To The Chillies.

I Crouched On The Chair As The Sensation Increases. Those Who Were There Were Laughing As They Knew What Happened. I Was In Tears As I Suffered The Unbearable Pain. I Went Back To The Toilet To Try To Cool It Down Using A Hose In The Cubical.

Just Like The Ideology Of Karma. "What Goes Around Comes Around".

On That Fateful Day, I Did Not Put A Prank On Anyone As I Learnt A Painful Lesson.

Ok Where Was I...

Why Do I Always Get Carried Away With Fateful Accidents Happened To Me!

Why Did I Post Like How Normal People Do.

NO!.....

News Tonight (Live Broadcast)

2009-12-04T01:30:00.000+08:00

Ok..

I Did This Video For About 2 Hours. And Now I Am Really Sleepy. Apart From The Previous Post, This Is In A New Location. I Moved Out Because I Had Been A Nuisance In The Room Twice. I Felt Bad About It. Yesterday I Got A Slight Stomachache Due To The Listerine I Drank. It Was Torturous.

I Miss Those Days In My School Library Where I Could See Netball Girls Playing At The Parade Square Where They Cant See Me. You See, One Thing Cool About My School Is That They Have A Special Translucent Window In The Library That Could Only See People Outside But Not The Ones Outside.

I Feel Guilty Saying This Because Those Netball Girls Reading This Might Think I Am Pervert. Well I Am, So Are Your Boyfriends :D. I Must Admit Most Of You Guys Have Nice Legs And They Are Reaveled With The Aid Of FBTs. Due To That, You Can't Fully Blame Me. If You Are Still Pissed From What I Am Saying, Let Me Give You Analogy; Imagine You Guys See A Pop-up'ed Naked Zac Afron Picture. You Will See It Knowing That Nobody Knows You Are Looking At His Dick Unless Your Parents Are Around.

Now The Guilt Had Faded.

But I Am Still A Pervert....

Nevermind, I Think The School Also Wants The Previledge.

Maybe This Is The Only Thing That I Appreciate In Regent.

Now, I Am Drying Myself Up After The Spill And Toothpaste Drool.

Fuck. Nevermind I Am Going To Sleep With It.

Dear Readers,

My First Vlog

2009-12-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

My First Blog

2009-11-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hello Readers,

I Feel A Mix Of Happiness And Guilt When I Am Typing This Post.

The Reason I Am Happy Is Because I Finally Finished Editing The Templates After Days Reading About HTML Codes. Overall, The Design Of The Blog Is Satisfying And The Colors Are Fine. I Believe That There Should Be More Improvements On The Designs As We Can See Many Top End Blogskin Designs Out There.

Apart From Being Happy, I Feel This Tint Of Guilt Inside Me. It Is Making Me Recall What I Had Done These Few Years When I First Get To Know Blogger. Maybe It Is Better For Me To Spit It Out And Confess.

"I ,Hakim Nur, Is Guilty For Making Nuisance In Tag Boards, Imitating The Blogger And Ruining Bloggers Life By Spamming Their Tag Boards. I Do Not Wish To Say Which Blogger Or Who So As To Protect Myself. What Am I Saying...HAHAAHA. Ok Now I Am Serious. Seriously, I Am Very Sorry For The Nuisance And The Shame That I Had Brought To You. If I Could Turn Back Time, I Would Not Do Such Immoral Behaviours. I Am Sincere. I Am Normally A Liar But This Time I Am Honest. Please Forgive Me. I Don't Want This To Happen It To Me :( "

Breathe In* Breathe Out*

Alright, Now I Am Watching Animal Planet. HAHAHAHA, That Lion Is Funny. I Seriously Pity These Animals In Animal Planet Because Just Imagine Yourself Being Filmed Without Getting Paid. Moreover, They Get No Privacy!. Seriously Just Picture Yourself Being Described And Explained On Tv By A Narrator Who Thinks They Knows What They Are Saying. Imagine You Are The Lion Who Intends To Eat But The Narrator Says That You Intend To Mate Just To Make It More Interesting.

Wait... My Legs Are Numb.

Ok.

Now, 01:51 AM And I Am Hakim Nur Reporting To You Live Broadcast In My Room. The Room Temperature Is Quite Cold. Everyone Is Sleeping. There Are Many Waterdrops On My Waterbottle. I Meant Watervapour.. Yea. There Is Something Talking To Me In The Room Which I Believe Is Myself. I Tend To Say What I Am Typing And It Irritates My Father Who Is Still Sleeping. Huh? No Later I Sleep.. I Still Got School Project To Do Haven't Finish. Ok Ok I Off Laptop. Ok Now I Am Back From The Toilet Pretending I Am Washing My Face Before I Sleep. My Father Seems To Be Asleep Now. Ok Lets Listen To Stars Are Blind By Paris Hilton. Searching, Yea. Fuck! It Is In My Main Computer. Hmmmmm I Think I Need To Sleep now. Goodnight.

Yours Sincerely,

Hakim Nur